Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
In light of my conituning Seven Deadly Sins posts, I thought it fitting to write a bit about the Seven Virtues, and my general lack thereof.
If Patience really is a virtue, I've spent my life on the fast track to hell. I'm not naturally patient. I think that Patience is not so much a virtue as a learned art, and as with all learned arts, some of us are just better masters than others.
Now I'm not the woman behind you in the checkout line at the supermarket who huffs and haws when the cashier has to call Joey from the back to check a price. I don't get uptight over late flights or long lines. I learned a long time ago not to sweat the small stuff, even though I must constantly remind myself that as I'm driving in Italian traffic, the epitome of tailgater heaven.
I'm unpatient over the big stuff. And that's so so much worse. I know most have you have met me now as I am planning my move to Colorado, but you can't imagine the excriciating, painstaking wait that has led up to this moment. My problem has always been that once I decide I want something or need something, NOW should definitely be the next word in that phrase!
And as the fates would have it, I have married the most patient man on the planet. He's right up there with Buddha. One of his favorite exchanges with me (which probably doesn't translate half as well in English) is:
Me: I think I've finally learned how to be more patient...
Him: That's just the beginning...
I see this icky lack of Patience in my very brain. My creativity comes in crazy flashes, my ideas move so quickly that they often collide, and wind up in a messy pile.
So how impatient am I? I found a list of the defining characteristics of Patience on this site, here are some of them:
Sit back and wait for an expected outcome without experiencing anxiety, tension, or frustration.
Ok - I'm actually pretty good at that, as long as I'm not in a hurry
Let go of your need for immediate gratification.
Hmmm- well, OK
Display tolerance, compassion, understanding, and acceptance toward those who are slower than you in developing maturity, emotional freedom, and coping abilities.
This one I really am good at. OK.
Accept your human frailty in the pursuit of personal, physical, emotional, and spiritual growth.
Are you serious?
Accept the set backs and reversals inevitable in your quest for personal growth.
The "F" word comes to mind, but OK.
Hang on to a relationship when trouble arises that may take some time to resolve.
Temper your enthusiasm, energy, exuberance, and excitement after you have experienced a renewal of spirit, received revelations or insights.
No way! Life is for celebrating!
See that overnight reformations are rarely long lasting; gradual change and growth have a greater durability.
Well, I beg to differ.
Feel relaxed, calm, and placid as you face your daily schedule and the challenges it presents.
Placid... did they actually use the word placid?
My score is probably about 50/50.